On June 11, 2015 my fifteen year old daughter, Ajha Felton, passed away, Cause of Death “unknown.” I recall the physicians telling me that she was a 1:1, meaning she was the only person in the medical world that they had seen with this particular illness. Ajha was hospitalized for approximately nine months while physicians scrambled around the clock to find a cure. Sadly, a cure was never found and my daughter passed away three months prior to her sweet sixteenth birthday.
I was talking to a friend the other day and my heart began to weep as I considered what the world was going through with the current unknown disease, COVID-19. My thoughts took me back to that season where I lost Ajha. The uncertainty, heartache, anxiety, depression, full of hope one day only for situations to “appear” to get worst the next. I had every prayer warrior in my corner, every intercessor and my church leaders. We all weeped and wailed and cried out to God day and night for God to do a miracle and heal my sweet daughter.
That season of battling the unknown with my daughter has become the most pivotal moment in my life and my walk with God. I learned the difference between knowing “about” God and Knowing God. The Bible stopped being a book that I read and it became a living organism. God’s Word became the very essence of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. The Bible, Jesus, became every answer to every concern. It was my weapon, my comfort, my guide, my peace, and my banter of victory, just to name a few. Psalms 23 was no longer just a passage of scripture but it became my experience as God “walked through the shadow of death” with me.
God’s People, I understand that COVID-19 has, like a thief, come to kill, steal, and destroy but Our God doesn’t want us to be moved in this season of the unknown. He wants us to “take heart” and have peace. Though the times may be uncertain to us the outcome is already certain to God. The Word of God teaches us in John 16: 32-33, 32 “A time is coming and in fact has come when you will be scattered, each to your own home. . . .” 33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”
I am a living witness that God will and can give you peace in the middle of the storm. Why am I certain, you may ask? Because He did it for me in my season with Ajha and guess what, He wants to do it for you too. I want to take you all on a journey of what I learned in my season and I hope my testimony may offer some encouragement to all you hears.
The first thing that I learned, in my season with Ajha, was that God is BIG and unexplainable, that I could not even wrap my head around His Glory. That even when I thought I knew what was “good” or “right” there was a possibility that I could be wrong. I learned why God forebode Adam and Eve to eat from the tree of “Good and Evil.” God did not want us to think that we were wise enough to determine whats “good” vs. “evil.” God said in Matthew, when you pray – pray, “Let your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.” God taught me that I was to pray God’s Word that had already been established in the Heavens and the Earth. I learned that Gods love for us is unimaginable, unexplainable and unequivocal to any type of love that I’d ever experienced. God humbled me in that season and gave me a clear picture of who He is and who I was. I realized that I knew absolutely “nothing” and that God knew everything. I learned that if I was going to get to the other-side of this unknown disease, I had to first humble myself before the Lord and surrender to His Greatness. I had to TRUST Him and Him only, not the Doctors, not the Nurses, not even what I deemed to be a good outcome but I had to surrender to His will and His way. I like to say it this way, “To trust God, is to Know God.” Once you know Him – it’s easy to trust.
With all of the current uncertainty swirling around COVID-19 we as God’s children must first recognize how BIG our God is. He is not a mere man but he is the great I AM. He is bigger than COVID-19, the Government, any disease, the vaccine, your problems, my problems or anything. He is God, All knowing, All Powerful, In Control and nothing takes Him by surprise. I think about the book of Job, where he and his friends tried to make sense of what God had allowed to happen in the life of Job. When God shows up on the scene in verse 38 he ask the question, “Who is this that obscures my plans with words without knowledge?” God reminds Job that Job is a mere man without all knowledge. He pretty much informs Job that everything that you see, is not everything that going on. Family we must be reminded of that today. That God is Great and that He is doing things behind the scenes and we must humble ourselves and trust him.
The second thing I learned in my season was that Trust alone does not bring you peace. In John 16 when Jesus says, “take heart” he was telling us, not to panic, to not be afraid, anxious, depressed or moved. It’s easy to tell someone to “take heart” but how do you actually, “take heart” when everything around you appears to be doom-and-gloom. I’m happy you asked. While going through this season with my daughter I came across this passage of scripture and I wanted to share this with each of you. These seeds of truth took root in my heart and I was able, with Gods strength, to “take heart” and experience peace that I could not explain. The Word of God teaches us how to obtain this perfect peace. Gods Word states according to Philippians 4:8-9, “8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”
This leads me to, what I believe was my greatest lesson learned as I journeyed through my season with Ajha and this is the lesson that I want to leave with each of you. If we want peace during this time of COVID-19 it is important that we pay close attention to what we allow to enter into our mind. We need to pay attention to what we are paying attention to. Remember when Peter was in the boat, the waves clashed and doom-and-gloom was all around but as long as Peter kept his eye on Jesus, (Jesus, who is right, pure, lovely, admirable and praiseworthy), Peter was at peace. God has given us the antidote to fear, depression and anxiety. Turn off the news, get off social media and turn our attention to Jesus. Gods Word says, “9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice.” What have we learned or received or heard? How about prayer, fasting, and speaking the things of God, over this situation and nothing else. God promises us that if we would do those things then He will give us peace. He never promised a life free from trouble. As a matter of fact according to John 16:33 He promised the exact opposite. However, what He did promise was peace and I have been a beneficiary of that peace in the middle of trouble and I pray that you all can partake of that peace as well.
So in closing family, if you desire Gods peace in this season, please get in your Word and really get to know God, humble yourself, pray, and think only on the things of God and watch God do a miraculous thing in your life you and the lives of those connected to you.
Thanks for reading and I hoped you’ve enjoyed.